Why Do People Fall Back into Homosexuality? A Failure to Develop a Prayer Life – 3 0f 6

Why Do People Fall Back into Homosexuality? A Failure to Develop a Prayer Life – 3 0f 6

This six-part series is also available on our website, and is on the print edition of our Winter Harvest News (just part one).  But we love to get comments, so feel  free to read John’s posts over the next several days and give us your comments!   

A question that is asked here at Harvest USA is a common one.  “Why do people, Christians even, go back to a gay

John Freeman

John Freeman

life after they have come for help?” It’s a legitimate question. For Christians who believe the historic Word, the Scriptures, and believe that faith in Christ makes one a “new creation,” the issue may seem confusing, but the answer must be honest and biblically-grounded.  Here is the 3rd reason of 6 to explain what might be happening here, as we have seen some common denominators over the years in our ministry work.


A Failure to Develop a Prayer and Devotional Life

By developing a prayer and devotional life I’m not talking about the kind of desperate praying that one does by begging God, “Please change me!”  I understand why some pray such prayers, and are exhausted by the years of such praying.  Many of the people who come to Harvest USA have already been here for far too long. Their early connections with or interest in the gospel really had to do with finding relief from an intolerable situation.  Once someone really comes to God on his terms, this kind of immature prayer fades away. After all, it is a prayer that is wholly focused on self, wishing (demanding?) that God alter his life by divine fiat so that no further effort or struggle need occur.  It’s an understandable prayer, and we feel for those whose cries speak it.

Replacing this kind of prayer must be the kind of prayer life that realizes that it’s only in communion with God that I can come to my senses about my heart, my struggles and the world around me.  This is the kind of prayer life that doesn’t look to God to make me feel better about my struggles but has, as its focus, a growing desire to know the Living Lord in the depths of the chaos and unbelief that swirl though my soul.

Psalm 88 is a classic study of a heart given to prayer even where there seems to be no resolution to the struggle.  This is not a feel-good psalm!  It is one of the few psalms where the psalmist doesn’t experience any obvious joyful breakthroughs.  In fact, it’s filled with unbelievable sarcasm.  The end of the psalm is as distressful as the beginning.  That is, until you look carefully at some of the words.

The one common refrain throughout the psalm is, “I cried out to you.”  It’s repeated three times.  This is a key to understanding the psalm and the one who wrote it.  The suffering psalmist realizes that it is coming before the Lord that is the important thing—not necessarily to gain relief, but to know that the God of the universe is aware of his suffering.  Upon closer observation, one realizes that the process of the prayer by the psalmist is the resolution.

This reminds me of a line from the movie, Shadowlands, the story of C.S. Lewis and his wife, Joy. In the movie, he was once congratulated on his wife’s remission from cancer.  One of his college friends tells Lewis that his prayers seem to be changing things.  Lewis’ response is remarkable.  He says, “Oh, I don’t pray to change things.  Prayer changes me.”  Whether or not Lewis actually said those words in the movie, it is still a profound and true statement.

Bringing our hurtful, unbelieving, struggling hearts before the Lord in true honesty (as honest and true as the psalmist of Psalm 88, whose words are scathingly honest!) is crucial for any believer and especially so for someone who is struggling with homosexuality. Prayer must turn from attention to self to attention to the One who loves us, no matter our sin or struggle.  He does care; he does pay attention.  But he wants, first and foremost, our hearts to be dependent on him and not on getting his gifts (changed circumstances) so that we can go on and live our life as we please.

John Freeman
About The Author
John began his ministry with Harvest USA as a volunteer while in seminary. As President of the organization he champions the mission of Harvest USA. He has a deep burden to see those who struggle with pornography, homosexuality and other sexual addictions experience changed lives through Jesus Christ. John spends most of his time helping churches be equipped to better care for the hearts of individuals and families vulnerable to these struggles.

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